So God, I Trust in You

Lord, all sufficient One, meet me with new grace and new mercy, today. Teach me to boast only in the cross of Jesus Christ. Help me to be as transparent as glass, hiding nothing from anyone. God, Your opinion of me is the only one that matters, and You see all, even the depths of my heart and thoughts! Christ intercedes for me! Therefore, I should not be afraid of what others think of me. I am righteous before God by faith in Christ, my Mediator and Savior! Father, I cannot be self-sufficient and do good. Any good thing I do is by Your grace and Your omnipotence. God, thank You for redeeming me by the cross. Only in Jesus' name can I pray. Amen.

What/ Who do I trust?
Myself. "I have to do ___ myself in order for it to get done correctly." I rely on my own (limited, though I think unlimited) strength and knowledge. I judge a situation based on whether I think that I can or cannot do it.

What do I think about?
My circumstances. "What do I have to do, today?" Mostly, my satisfaction is based on my circumstances. As they change, I want to be satisfied, so I spend much of my time thinking about them.

What do I talk about?
My knowledge/successes. I don't mean that I directly talk about my knowledge and successes: "Well, my IQ is ___ and I did ___." Rather, I indirectly talk about them by answering questions I don't have to answer, or I express them in a way that is arrogant. I don't express my thoughts as follows: "I think ____ but am not sure about that." I express my answers in a way that says, " I know ____ to be true and am not wrong." Also, I express things I just learned as if I knew them all of my life. Plus, if someone doesn't know something that I know, I am quick to think of them as stupid, even though I didn't know it once and that they know things I don't know.

What do I fear?
Failure, of any kind. "I don't know," is not allowed. I don't want people to view me as ignorant or as a sinner. Though, I am! I don't want anyone's view of me to be soiled by a mistake or failure. I want myself to be highly esteemed in other's eyes.

God, You should be the answer to all of these questions. That is why there is joy in grace! You generously and sovereignly provide and sustain me, even while I am sinful. Grace abounded all the more! Lord, thank You for showing me my sinful answers to these questions and helping me to be like Your Son.

If anyone reading this ever sees that God is not the answer to these questions in my life, hold me accountable to it and correct me.


God Moves

God moves in a mysterious way,
His wonders to perform.
He plants His footsteps in the sea,
and rides upon the storm.
Deep in His dark and hidden mines,
with never failing skill,
He fashions all His bright designs,
and works His sovereign will.

Oh fearful saints, new courage take:
the clouds that you now dread
are big with mercy and will break
in blessings on your head.
Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
but trust Him for His grace.
Behind a frowning providence,
He hides a smiling face.

God's purposes will ripen fast,
unfolding every hour.
The bud may have a bitter taste,
but sweet will be the flower.
Blind unbelief is sure to err
and scan His work in vain.
God is His own interpreter,
and He will make it plain.

So God, we trust in You.
O God, we trust in You.
When tears are great and comforts few,
we hope in mercies ever new.
We trust in You.